Go after her. Fuck, don't sit there and wait for her to call. Go after her, because that's what you should do if you love someone. Don't wait for them to give you a sign because it might never come. Don't let people happen to you, don't let me happen to you, or her, she's not a fucking television show, or a tornado. There are people I might have loved had they run down the street after me or called me up at 4 in the morning drunk to tell me because they need to tell me right now and because they can't regret this and I always thought I'd be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or to be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on 4 days notice because you can't just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone's idea of love but it is the way I can recognise it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is unguarded and raw, and that is all that is worth anything, really.